… Kinda want this? Not sure how it would work in real life, but whatever.
a brief introduction
I always liked cock.
Huge, big, medium, small, one or many, thick or thin, in any shape or color - I just like it. Especially big and many, but that’s not the point. Before dating Captain, I never thought I’d be able to be in a relationship. First, I didn’t cared much about that. Second… Well, what about men? How am I going to resist being with one person alone, with all those men and their cocks walking around?
And then I realized I was in love with Mr. Hauptmann.
That was a few years ago. We always were friends, the best ones you could find, but it was not just that, it could never be just that. We were partners, family, even enemies, sometimes; it didn’t mattered what we were, but we were two and we were together even before noticing it.
At first, I thought I wouldn’t be sexually happy. It didn’t had to do with Captain’s looks, or personality - not at all, I’m proud to have a very handsome Sir, the kind that makes other people envious. Still, I thought the same thing I did before: but what about the men? The cocks? What about that, huh?
And then I noticed I wouldn’t be able to be attracted to someone again, not loving Captain so much.
I just couldn’t. Not for moral reasons. It’s because since then, no one else was good enough. I am completely satisfied, and everything without Sir is awfully empty.
Even being crazily jealous and possessive, Captain always knew that, not just the first part, but also how devoted I am. There’s no way I could care for others, not anymore.
And then Captain told me.
I’m not the only one who likes many cocks around me, we just like being in different sides of the story. Captain loves watching, unless that’s what they are - cocks and hands and mouths, not people and names and personalities. And I love being fucked and being watched and commanded by Sir, but only if they remain like that. Coin-operated, faceless boys, not multidimensional people. Maybe this is a little confuse. It probably is. But that’s how we like it, and any worries we had back then are gone.
I suggest taking back the word slut and only applying it where it is appropriate. Let’s not call girls sluts for the wrong reasons. Actually, let’s take it back in a way where it becomes more accurate. Let us definitely call the girls who are ACTUALLY sluts this word. And most especially the ones who do like being called such in the right context. ;)
I have mixed feelings towards rape play.
The thing is… Rape, real or not, criminal or just fantasy, makes me sick. It nauseates me and scares me, even knowing it’s just a kink. Rationally, I understand and enjoy it, but it still makes me uneasy and afraid.
In other hand, I get helplessly wet and aroused most of the time I think about it or hear Captain talking about forcing me, tying me up and letting others play with my body, and similar situations. Sometimes, I just cringe. I can’t help it - the animal side gets terrified and wants to run away, and in these times, I’ll most likely end up curled up in a ball, being petted by Mr. Hauptmann until I calm down. Other times I just play along and have fun, but I never know when it’s going to be one time or the other, so I still can’t form a proper opinion about it, I guess.
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I can’t help but reblog every picture that reminds me of Captain, in a way or another C:.
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